How did you think that would end? Well if you're wondering how my trip to Virginia went, last year. It went well, and even my second trip up this year went pretty okay. Aside from the fact that someone asked me to sign a lease for them knowing full well I didn't have a job, and used someone I cared for a lot as a strong-arm, trying to get me to do what she wanted. And though this was the first time I'd ever stood up for anything in my life, things didn't end how I wanted them to.
Found out the woman I'd been talking to about marriage for for years, has been dating someone else. She's happy with him so I'm proud. I'm sad for the situation with myself, now that I have no one. But for her--she's found her lover that she wants to keep her safe. She didn't have to attempt to please me for the years she had, she could have told me years ago and I would have left long ago to make her happy.
Sadly it didn't work out like that, I'd been living in a dream assuming she and I would live together while she already had plans with someone. I feel ashamed for not knowing better, and making her have issues.
I feel worse because I can't do anything to make her happy again and she said I used to be her best friend. Of course now I'm just the asshole in the world, so I'm actually sending her things back so she can have them and be happy again. She was upset for a while but she gave me these things a while back. I know I wanted the bunny hat but there's no point in owning the hat if you aren't in my life. I've missed this girl so much, and loved her so much. I can't believe it's over, nor can I believe how much she hates me. I wish she told me this years ago... nothing would have changed, I've always loved her. It's funny, when I first met her, I told a buddy of mine about her, and he told me I was insane. I was. But I still love her.
Wish I knew what to put.