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Things didn't work out with me and the girl who I planned to marry. She's found someone else, or found someone else years ago. So--I'm happy she's found happiness. Just wish eventually I could find a person who truly loved me.
knife. 

How did you think that would end? Well if you're wondering how my trip to Virginia went, last year. It went well, and even my second trip up this year went pretty okay. Aside from the fact that someone asked me to sign a lease for them knowing full well I didn't have a job, and used someone I cared for a lot as a strong-arm, trying to get me to do what she wanted. And though this was the first time I'd ever stood up for anything in my life, things didn't end how I wanted them to.

Found out the woman I'd been talking to about marriage for for years, has been dating someone else. She's happy with him so I'm proud. I'm sad for the situation with myself, now that I have no one. But for her--she's found her lover that she wants to keep her safe. She didn't have to attempt to please me for the years she had, she could have told me years ago and I would have left long ago to make her happy.

Sadly it didn't work out like that, I'd been living in a dream assuming she and I would live together while she already had plans with someone. I feel ashamed for not knowing better, and making her have issues.

I feel worse because I can't do anything to make her happy again and she said I used to be her best friend. Of course now I'm just the asshole in the world, so I'm actually sending her things back so she can have them and be happy again. She was upset for a while but she gave me these things a while back. I know I wanted the bunny hat but there's no point in owning the hat if you aren't in my life. I've missed this girl so much, and loved her so much. I can't believe it's over, nor can I believe how much she hates me. I wish she told me this years ago... nothing would have changed, I've always loved her. It's funny, when I first met her, I told a buddy of mine about her, and he told me I was insane. I was. But I still love her.

Sincerely,

Wish I knew what to put.
  • Mood: Wow!
  • Watching: Nothing
Next week I will be going to VA. I will be visiting someone I love very much.
knife. 

How did you think that would end? Well if you're wondering how my trip to Virginia went, last year. It went well, and even my second trip up this year went pretty okay. Aside from the fact that someone asked me to sign a lease for them knowing full well I didn't have a job, and used someone I cared for a lot as a strong-arm, trying to get me to do what she wanted. And though this was the first time I'd ever stood up for anything in my life, things didn't end how I wanted them to.

Found out the woman I'd been talking to about marriage for for years, has been dating someone else. She's happy with him so I'm proud. I'm sad for the situation with myself, now that I have no one. But for her--she's found her lover that she wants to keep her safe. She didn't have to attempt to please me for the years she had, she could have told me years ago and I would have left long ago to make her happy.

Sadly it didn't work out like that, I'd been living in a dream assuming she and I would live together while she already had plans with someone. I feel ashamed for not knowing better, and making her have issues.

I feel worse because I can't do anything to make her happy again and she said I used to be her best friend. Of course now I'm just the asshole in the world, so I'm actually sending her things back so she can have them and be happy again. She was upset for a while but she gave me these things a while back. I know I wanted the bunny hat but there's no point in owning the hat if you aren't in my life. I've missed this girl so much, and loved her so much. I can't believe it's over, nor can I believe how much she hates me. I wish she told me this years ago... nothing would have changed, I've always loved her. It's funny, when I first met her, I told a buddy of mine about her, and he told me I was insane. I was. But I still love her.

Sincerely,

Wish I knew what to put.
  • Mood: Wow!
  • Watching: Nothing

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ChowFanGirl12 Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hey there, Nick. :) Thanks for adding me to your Watchlist... :) 
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Ryokushin Featured By Owner Dec 6, 2014
No problem! It's been so long, I hope you are doing well still. I thank you for your original comment you've been a great follower even if I never update often. I am very glad to have you!
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TrinitySage Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Hey Nicholas I did a special dedication to you on my profile page as a way to say thank you for watching me since 2006!

Hope you get to see it! It will be up for a week!
Thanks again!
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Ryokushin Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2013
Thank you~ You are absolutely sweet. I'm glad to have known you for so long. :] Who'd have thought we would have met and at least known each other. I know sometimes I'm kind of... crass--and rude sometimes. Sometimes I say odd things, and can't be a great friend all the time. But every day I'm glad I have people like you in my life. :] 
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TrinitySage Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Awwwwww, that is soo sweet!! I'm really glad that we did get to know each other and you were definitely one of the reasons why I joined DA in the first place, all those years ago! I'm just sorry that we pretty much lost touch and stuff, life happens, but I do feel fortunate to still have you on my friends and watcher's list all these years! I really appreciate it and I'm super glad I got to hear back from you!!

Thank you for chatting with me on AIM and stuff way back when! I really needed someone to talk to during that time in my life and you were there for me! I'll never forget you and your kindness!!
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Ryokushin Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2013
I'm glad I was there at the right time. I haven't forgotten you--or our time together! I'm definitely happy to have heard from you again--and I am honored to call you a friend. :] If you ever need anything--you know where to find me. 
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Cynlife Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2011   Digital Artist
You've been Tagged!

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Ryokushin Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2012
Thanks! :D
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Cynlife Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2011   Digital Artist
Thank you for the watch :)
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